Phew....

The funeral was as expected depressing, I was so close to crying...but I mean it was mostly just because everyone else was...Then after the funeral I went over to Jasons house and hung out for a bit, Im exhausted >.<

EARLY!!!!!

Ugh, my alarm clock went off even though I didnt set it to, so now I cant get back to sleep and Im exhausted..... Today is the day of the funeral, man life has just been going down hill since the year started, for once I actually wish I never met Courtney, or that she hadnt been so nice to me. I mean I wouldnt feel so bad if we hadnt become such good friends.

Bored

Ok, well I didnt go to school today, theres a pep rally and it just didnt feel like an appropriate time for one. So I stayed, semi sort of a bad idea, its been really boring and there was a kid that Im going to beat up, stupid Erik.... Anyway I kind of want to see if Jason would want to come of over, but Im pretty sure he cant, or wouldnt want to....

RIP

I went to the visiting for Jasons mother. When I first got there, I tried to avoid everyone, I usually try that when I feel weak. But I saw how a lot of other pople were crying and I let out a couple tears, then when I went to wipe a tear away I accidently jabbed my eye...so a couple more came out. I felt slightly out of place as more people came in, I didnt know very many people, but apparently a few of them knew me. I saw some people I wasnt expecting, like a girl named Alyssa Leonard, I used to have a crush on her, and not even Jason was expecting her. XD then a girl named Ally said hi to me and turned to Jason and was like, me and Don had a heart to heart on the bus. She just asked me why I didnt sit with Courtney anymore, so I told her =/. Ok well peace out guys Im off for now...

Agh

Ok um...I dont know how to add many gadgets to this thing, so if somebody could please help Id be most greatful.

Odd Day...

Ok Well I talked to this other guy who had a crush on Courtney, I can see why she rejected him! But the thing is, from what he told me...shes nuts, she'll look like shes flirting and stuff, blah blah blah, I dont know, I dont want to give up but I have to. Oh well, it may feel like the end of the world, but Im actually kind of accepting that =/. In other news, the visiting for Jasons mother is tonight and Im going to that, its to bad I feel bad for him, she was a nice woman.... Yeah not much good news from my end, but as time goes on Ill probably have happier posts....

I Hate Mornings

Well its the morning after that horrible day..I dont want to go to school cause I dont think I could make it through, but my mom is makeing me. It will be awkward because of Courtney, not only has that ship sailed...but it sank worse than the Titanic, man I gotta say thats the biggest failure in my life, and sadly I was trying to make this work =/. I guess this just means that there isnt somebody for everybody.

Horrible Day

Well for anyone actually reading this, right at the moment, I hate my life.... My best friend Jason, his mother died... I lost a really good freind her name is Courtney I had kind of a crush on her, and I felt like she was going to be important to my life...she was, but not like I hoped, or even in a good way. I just kind of wish...I could rewind a couple months...change some things...but everbody feels that way about something in there life... But the thing is...nobody should be 15 and have completely given up on life. Its not right, I mean sure, Ive gotten a lot of tough breaks...but heck I should be stronger. Oh well, failure till the end...peace out...

Sorry gotta figure this out....

Ok...well...hmmm...so far this seems simple enough I think....Meh...if its not right Ill figure it out later...