Not much activity lately.

Wow, blogger has been quiet, to me at least. Might as well put something up to fill the gap.
Uh, well I've been doing a lot of thinking, writing, drawing, stuff. I've been trying to write a song, but I can't get it right, so I'll probably just drop it.
If this post seems kind of negative, or whiny, I apologize, youth group tonight really depressed me, and has made me begin to question a lot of things. But this isn't about that.
Melissa and I are trying to think of something to do on Saturday. Not really sure what to do, but we'll figure something out.
Ouch ouch ouch, I have a stomach ache >.<
Oh! I made a new character, his name is Jackson Taylor, I changed his previous last name to something not so familiar =) I tried to make him a bad boy character, who isn;t really a bad boy, it's just a mask he wears to keep himself safe. Working out so far, which is good. I wonder how far things will go with him, I'm curios to find out.
The song Love is War is amazing, I love it, it sends a message that I like, and the genre is good as well.
Anyway, finished with my pointless rant, gonna listen to Love is War, then go to bed.

Later! Off.

Best post will I can.

So, I fell asleep during class today.....A lot, so a bad note will be sent to my mom, and I will be grounded >.<

Nothing has been happening much lately, there hasn't been much to report, and I keep forgetting of things I could report about.

Mostly I've been playing Fallout 3 and messing around on that. Oh, and watching Quantom Leap, and other movies my mom brings up on Netflix. =)

I need some more excitement in my life.....

Super Bowl contains no soup or cereal.

So, I went to the superbowl party today. It was cool, I talked to people, they commented on my hat, it was nice. I met a guy named Jole (Joel?) And a girl named Asia (Aeja?) Idk, people with hard to spell names. Me and a little girl kept putting ice cubes down each others shirts, I had some tacos. I sat by myself for a bit to see if people would notice, to see if they were listening the past couple of weeks. Three people noticed, out of all of them. Anyways, then I found out that I may not be able to go to the movie on Sunday, which means no one who was going with me will be able to either.
Courtney didn't go, but that's ok I guess, I don't know how things would have went if she came. Not saying they would have went bad, but I liked how they went, I didn't want it to go differently. Plus I talked about her to Jason and Jole, Jason said that we'd both be off alone, by ouselves, not even next to each other. I forgot what I said to Jole ( Or did I...? Dun dun dun! Lol)
Asia (Aeja? Gah!) Was interesting, the first thing I hear from her is "Brian, you can't tell! Pinky swear!!" Brian told me..... Lol, but I wont say what he said. Anyway, she talked to me some, kind of in the mock interest, but did it in a way that was like....mock...mock? It was weird. Hard to explain, I couldn't tell if she was sincere, joking, joking about joking, being overly friendly or what, it was kind of funny.
Other then that just been doing a lot of thinking. Stress. Jealousy. Happiness. Anxiety. Bout the usual.

And Another Thing

So yesterday was the most amazing moment ever for me going to youth group.
The youth leader asked just a couple volunteers to coem up and share some things, not even that big. But then it grew from just a couple to many, and from small, to huge. I won't say what since I swore confidentiality. I really wanted to go up and say something, but my stage fright kept me down, and didn't go away until it was too late.
And so everyone agreed to ear lunch with the people of our youth group. Sort of, not everyone did, but I was suprised to see some of them there. Especially Adam, I have a new found respect for that guy, he stepped away from his friends, even though they were teasing him about it, and sat with us. He even bought me a cookie. Just a little bonus. I'm glad we did this though, I'm warming up to my youth group more now =) There are supposedly bible studies in the mornings, but I'm not sure if I'm quite ready for that yet.
I hope I get to go through something like this again, it was great, very moving. Hopefully I can go up and say something next time. I'd probably end up like giving my life story and end up rambling though. Heheh ^^;
One thing I got from this is I do need to start working harder to help people, despite that scared feeling in my gut.