I've had a lot on my mind lately, and this song sort of says a lot of how I feel on a topic giving me a lot of stress.
Running Away by Hoobastank
I don't want you to give it all up
And leave your own life collecting dust
And I don't want you to feel sorry for me
You never gave us a chance to be
And I don't need you to be by my side
To tell me that everything's alright
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Cause I did enough to show you that I
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And I was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough
And when I get close, you turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
Is it a waste of time?
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
...What is it I've got to say...
So why are you running away?
...To make you admit you're afraid...
Why are you running away?
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And the thing that's been making me sad lately kind of goes along with this song.
You''l Be In My Heart by Phill Collins
Come stop your cryin'
and we'll be alright
Just take my hand, hold it tight.
I will protect from all around you,
I will be here dont you cry.
For one so small, you seem so strong.
My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm,
This bond between us cant be broken,
I will be here dont you cry
CHORUS:
'Cos you'll be in my heart,
yes you'll be in my heart,
From this day on now and forever more.
You'll be in my heart,
No matter what they say,
You'll be here in my heart,
Always.
Why can't they understand the way we feel,
They just don't trust what they cant explain.
How know your different
Deep inside us, where not that different at all.
CHORUS:
And you'll be in my heart,
yes you'll be in my heart,
From this day on now and forever more.
Don't listen to them, 'cos what do they know.(what do they know)
We need each other, to have to hold.
They'll see in time, I know.
When destiny calls you, you must be strong
(you godda be strong)
I may not be with you, but you got to hold on.
They'll see in time, I know.
That your there together 'cos
You'll be in my heart,
Believe me,
You'll be in my heart.
I'll be there from this day on,
now and forever more.
Ooh you'll be in my heart
(you'll be here in my heart)
No matter what they say
(I'll be with you)
You'll be here in my heart
(I'll be there)
Always
Always
I'll be with you,
I'll be there for you always
Always and always.
Just look over your shoulder x3
I'll be there always.
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Of course that doesnt cover everything, but it's a start I suppose. I really wish there were some songs that would explain exactly how I feel. But I've been looking, I'm bound to find some eventually. Music has been helping me a lot! Something about it just fills me with happiness, and wholeness. It can turn me from boiling mad to completely calm, or extremely depressed to happy, or vice versa. Music is just so magical!
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Thursday, September 23, 2010
I love this.
Thinking of you, wherever you are.
We pray for our sorrows to end.
And we hope that our hearts will blend.
Now I will step forward to realize this wish.
And who knows - starting a new journes may not be so hard
Or maybe it has already begun.
There are many worlds.
But they share the same sky -
One Sky.
One Destiny.
I know it's from a video game, but I still think it's beautiful.
We pray for our sorrows to end.
And we hope that our hearts will blend.
Now I will step forward to realize this wish.
And who knows - starting a new journes may not be so hard
Or maybe it has already begun.
There are many worlds.
But they share the same sky -
One Sky.
One Destiny.
I know it's from a video game, but I still think it's beautiful.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Story.
I got bored in class, and wrote a short scene with characters from a game I play. If you look to the right, you will see them. ---->
Mind you, this is just a rough, quickly done story, with no real ending, yet.
"You saw didn't you!?"
"Saw what? I don't know what you mean."
"You know exactly what I mean!" The small blonde girl said, tears coming to her eyes.
"Oh, you mean the bear?"
The girl gasped and covered her face with her hands.
"Hey, it's your own fault, what kind of idiot hangs upside down in a tree wearing a dress?"
After wiping her eys the girl glared at him angrily. "It's not a dress, it's a robe of a fallen angel, standard issue!"
"I'll take it that the undies weren't included?"
The boy folded his arms, getting slightly annoyed with the arguement.
The girl gaped at him, "Sir Laharl, you're the worst!"
"Yeah Prince, you're the one peeking at her panties you perv, be a littler nicer to poor little Flonne." Interrupted a girl with fiery red hair, put up into two spiked pig tails.
"Dammit Etna, I wasn't looking at her underwear!"
"Then howed you spot the bear?" Etna asked in a mocking tone, with a smirk on her face.
"It wasn't hard to notice! It just cought my attention, I have no interest in panties!" Laharl said in his defence.
"Oh So if I were to show you.... my panties right now, you would't care?" She asked seductively, grabbing at the bottom of her skirt and slowly beginning to lift.
"W-WHAT!?" Laharl uncrossed his arms and made a face of shock, disgust, and a small hidden amount of embarrasment.
Etna let out a snort, and fell to the ground rolling with laughter. "Oh man, you should've seen your face! It was priceless!" She breathed in hard to cath her breath, then continued with her laughing fit.
And, that's all I got so far.
Mind you, this is just a rough, quickly done story, with no real ending, yet.
"You saw didn't you!?"
"Saw what? I don't know what you mean."
"You know exactly what I mean!" The small blonde girl said, tears coming to her eyes.
"Oh, you mean the bear?"
The girl gasped and covered her face with her hands.
"Hey, it's your own fault, what kind of idiot hangs upside down in a tree wearing a dress?"
After wiping her eys the girl glared at him angrily. "It's not a dress, it's a robe of a fallen angel, standard issue!"
"I'll take it that the undies weren't included?"
The boy folded his arms, getting slightly annoyed with the arguement.
The girl gaped at him, "Sir Laharl, you're the worst!"
"Yeah Prince, you're the one peeking at her panties you perv, be a littler nicer to poor little Flonne." Interrupted a girl with fiery red hair, put up into two spiked pig tails.
"Dammit Etna, I wasn't looking at her underwear!"
"Then howed you spot the bear?" Etna asked in a mocking tone, with a smirk on her face.
"It wasn't hard to notice! It just cought my attention, I have no interest in panties!" Laharl said in his defence.
"Oh So if I were to show you.... my panties right now, you would't care?" She asked seductively, grabbing at the bottom of her skirt and slowly beginning to lift.
"W-WHAT!?" Laharl uncrossed his arms and made a face of shock, disgust, and a small hidden amount of embarrasment.
Etna let out a snort, and fell to the ground rolling with laughter. "Oh man, you should've seen your face! It was priceless!" She breathed in hard to cath her breath, then continued with her laughing fit.
And, that's all I got so far.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
School started.
Yep, and it sucks. I might post more often, maybe.
I've been down the past few days, but a lot of things have cheered me up, people, internet, myself even. Despite the situation, I'm actually happy.
So, this tri, sucks, horribly. I don't have anywhere to sit at lunch, so I grab my food, sit at a table, eat it quickly, then run away into the hall way. There's a new girl who's in my LAD class who sort of does the same thing, I've been being nice to her, since I know what it's like being a new kid, but she has it worse since it's high school.
I did homework today, it wasnt too bad, but I'd rather not do it every night.
So, the anime club is coming back this year, still have to figure everything out though.
Anyways, I'm too tired to continue, not even sure what else to post.
So, good night all.
I've been down the past few days, but a lot of things have cheered me up, people, internet, myself even. Despite the situation, I'm actually happy.
So, this tri, sucks, horribly. I don't have anywhere to sit at lunch, so I grab my food, sit at a table, eat it quickly, then run away into the hall way. There's a new girl who's in my LAD class who sort of does the same thing, I've been being nice to her, since I know what it's like being a new kid, but she has it worse since it's high school.
I did homework today, it wasnt too bad, but I'd rather not do it every night.
So, the anime club is coming back this year, still have to figure everything out though.
Anyways, I'm too tired to continue, not even sure what else to post.
So, good night all.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
I'm sorry.
About my previous post. I didnt mean it......in a way. I was just letting off steam. Please disregard it all.
Bullshit.
.....You know what, forget it. I had a whole speech prepared, about how I just quit. With religion, with people, with trying to be a better person. But, it's not worth it, and right now, I don't find any of you worth it to type all of it. I'm just done, all this shit has brought me is pain. Sure, some things have made me feel better then I ever have before, but when I lost it, it just made me feel equally worse. So I'm done.
Friday, September 3, 2010
Stolen Meme.
1. Are you happier now than you were five months ago?
Not at the moment, no.
2. Have you ever slept in the same bed with anyone that you shouldn't have?
In a sense, maybe, do I regret it, no.
3. Can you sleep in total darkness?
Yes.
4. Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hardest for, the one who got away, what do you say?
Oh........Hello.
5. What do you think about the weather this summer?
Havnt noticed much really.
6. How many people do you trust with everything?
2-3 depends.
7. What was the last thing you drank?
Grape Crush.
8. Is there anyone you want to come see you?
Not at the moment.
9. Name one thing you love about winter?
Christmas.
10. Have you ever dated a Goth?
I don't think so.....
11. What are you looking forward to tomorrow?
Absolutely nothing.
12. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having?
Not in a good mood, at all.
13. What's the longest that you have committed to one person and one person only?
8 months.
14. What’s the first thing you did when you opened your eyes today?
Regretted it.
15. Has anyone ever told you they never want to ever lose you?
Not in those words exactly.
16. Is there anybody that you wish you could fix your relationship with?
Yes.
17. Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?
I don't see why not.
18. Do you think things will change in the next 3 months?
Yeah, I doubt I'll like it though.
19. Do you believe that you never know what you got until you lose it?
Sometimes.
20. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
I have no idea at the moment.
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
Uuuhh......
22. Describe your accent:
I couldnt tell ya.
23. If you could change anything about yourself, would you?
Right now, I'm tired of changing, and compromising. So no.
24. What do you wear to sleep?
Whatever I'm currently wearing at the time. So anything.
25. When was the last time you were in a very good mood? What caused it?
I can't say, but it was the only good thing that happened to me within the week.
If you're looking for more, forget it, I don't feel like it. I only put this up because it required little to no work, and I hadnt updated in a while.
Not at the moment, no.
2. Have you ever slept in the same bed with anyone that you shouldn't have?
In a sense, maybe, do I regret it, no.
3. Can you sleep in total darkness?
Yes.
4. Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hardest for, the one who got away, what do you say?
Oh........Hello.
5. What do you think about the weather this summer?
Havnt noticed much really.
6. How many people do you trust with everything?
2-3 depends.
7. What was the last thing you drank?
Grape Crush.
8. Is there anyone you want to come see you?
Not at the moment.
9. Name one thing you love about winter?
Christmas.
10. Have you ever dated a Goth?
I don't think so.....
11. What are you looking forward to tomorrow?
Absolutely nothing.
12. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having?
Not in a good mood, at all.
13. What's the longest that you have committed to one person and one person only?
8 months.
14. What’s the first thing you did when you opened your eyes today?
Regretted it.
15. Has anyone ever told you they never want to ever lose you?
Not in those words exactly.
16. Is there anybody that you wish you could fix your relationship with?
Yes.
17. Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?
I don't see why not.
18. Do you think things will change in the next 3 months?
Yeah, I doubt I'll like it though.
19. Do you believe that you never know what you got until you lose it?
Sometimes.
20. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
I have no idea at the moment.
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
Uuuhh......
22. Describe your accent:
I couldnt tell ya.
23. If you could change anything about yourself, would you?
Right now, I'm tired of changing, and compromising. So no.
24. What do you wear to sleep?
Whatever I'm currently wearing at the time. So anything.
25. When was the last time you were in a very good mood? What caused it?
I can't say, but it was the only good thing that happened to me within the week.
If you're looking for more, forget it, I don't feel like it. I only put this up because it required little to no work, and I hadnt updated in a while.
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